The 1st Real Smack

Okay, so here's the photos of my ring finger on my left hand. Of course they don't 'show' pain. And they don't really show the disfigurement properly. I'm truly fighting the depression. The 1st real sign. 

Blog Failure

I stopped blogging. I don't know why. It's July now. I've been suffering a lot. Storming weather and humidity have been causing my joints severe pain. Today was a migraine day too. My family, while I think they try sometimes, still don't fully understand the daily struggle I face. Between the Lupus & the RA it can be quite depressing too. So I don't just struggle physically, but mentally as well. 

I'm finding more and more things that I can't eat anymore too. My doctors have warned me that my diet would change. I try to keep to healthier options, but I still love ice cream! I can't eat onions or cucumbers now. They upset my tummy to the point of terrible pain. Heavy creams or sauces are also a 'no go'. I'm happy that breakfast foods are still yummy and have no adverse affects on me. Yea! Milk does though. Being raised on a dairy farm - this is distressing. My ice cream option is Gelato. I get dairy milk from our local farm. And I use almond milk in my cereal and coffee. You figure things out through trial and error. 

Work is going okay. As long as I stay around 25-30 hours I'm good. More than 10 hour shifts are too much. And more than 30 hours a week and I'm down for 2 days. My scheduler & I are working it out. 

I'll be blogging more. I hope someone is reading. But even if not, it's suppose to be my therapy. 

Gone gone gone, I've been gone too long...

Hello there everyone. Anyone. Someone. These past several months have been very challenging. I've been struggling with arthritis pain. The severe weather changes have been a major factor, I'm sure. I'm looking forward to more stable conditions outside so I can feel better on the inside. 

I'll be randomly updating more soon. But tonight I'm exhausted from work and the Xanax is kicking my ass. Sleep will be much welcomed. I've not had a lot of that lately either. 

Peace and prayers my lovelies. 

T.